I’ve been there- the gang stalking, the psychotic breakdowns, the raw pain that comes from feeling so alone in a world filled with people, drowning my sorrows in alcohol just to numb the suffering. All I needed was for one person to be my beacon of hope, but I never got that.
Now that I’m in a place where I appreciate the lessons I’ve learned, I want to pay it forward and be the beacon of light in someone else’s life.
If you’re here, it’s not a coincidence. Know that this message found you not a moment too soon or a moment too late. So, if you haven’t already, grab a cup of coffee or tea and get comfy.
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The people who are out to get you- they’re threatened by your power. I know you feel anything but powerful right now. But if you were just anybody else who was here to play by the rules and not blaze your own trails, do you think they would have come after you? No. They would have left you alone to live an average life.
You’re here for something far greater than yourself- you’re here to break generational trauma, heal ancestral wounds, free your lineage.
That’s anything but average. It’s not for the faint of heart. But it’s your destiny- to do the things that those who came before you couldn’t. To pave a path for future generations. And my God, you’re going to do it because you already have been.
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Maybe you stumbled along the way, but you dusted yourself off, didn’t you? Maybe you stayed down for a hot minute, but you picked yourself back up, didn’t you? Maybe you had to climb out of the grave you were buried alive in, but you’re no longer six feet under, are you?
No. Because you have a strength and a resilience that the ones who tried to destroy you wish they had. You’ve fought wars that no one will ever know about. And you did it all with dignity.
Sure, maybe there were times you fought back. But even the kindest, most soft spoken person becomes the wrong person to f*ck with when they’re pushed too far.
They broke you. They were meant to. So you could rebuild yourself, piece by piece. Even as painful as it was, you’ve become a better person because of the pain.
You loved- you loved with all of your heart. And what you got in return was a heart so shattered that it couldn’t even be mended back together. So you healed each invisible scar. Sure, some may still be tender to the touch, but it makes you vulnerable in all the right places.
After all that, you still know how to love. Do you have any idea what that says about your character? You had every reason to seek revenge, but you brought light into the darkness.
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You will get through this. You’ve been through too much to settle for mediocrity. You are not here to be average. You’re here to be powerful. You’re here to OWN your power.
But to own your power, you needed to get dragged into the abyss of darkness. See people for who they are, not what you think their potential is. You needed to come face to face with those that made you feel worthless so you could find your own worth. You don’t even need to try harder, heal more, or be better. You just need to be you.
Your heart hurts. Of course it does. It’s been dragged to hell and back- kicked, beaten, and bruised. It’s time to close your heart to the ones who hurt you and open your heart to yourself. Tend to it. Nurture it. Feel the rhythms of your heart’s desires and follow it with wild abandon.
I’ll see you soon…in the meantime, love yourself so much that even a Hallmark Christmas movie would be jealous.