The first blog post was published on Cleen Carma back in 2018. I had no idea the type of business I wanted to create back then.
I was already sober but refused to speak about it. I wasn’t ready. The pain was too raw.
So I kept it lighthearted and impersonal. All I knew was that spirituality was going to be the core of Cleen Carma.
I also loved the name and spelling of the business so I knew I needed to buy the domain with this spelling before fear took over.
Since then, it’s gone through hundreds of blog posts written and deleted, various spiritual and metaphysical modalities explored, several rebrandings because I was still learning where I fit in, and behind the scenes healing.
So much has changed since then. In the past 7 plus years, I’ve unpacked a lifetime of trauma. From physical, emotional, and psychological abuse from my father, mother, and stepfather, relationships with men who emulated my childhood, sexual assaults, mental illnesses, and substance abuse.
When I was at my worst and didn’t think I would come out of it alive, I made a vow to myself- one day, I would heal and turn the pain into purpose.
My story is something I was humiliated of my entire life because I was indoctrinated to be ashamed of my own existence.
It became a theme that kept repeating itself, preventing me from showing up as I am- I was living life through the perception of others.
That’s not what I want. I want to live life through my lens. That includes sharing parts of me I’ve never shared with anyone. Being able to speak my story in a way that’s authentic to me while not placing blame on anyone or being angry for the lessons I’ve learned.
A 21 day DIY sobriety program to awaken your inner guru so you can transform pain into power and purpose.
While there are things I wish didn’t happen and things I would have done differently had I known better, I still wouldn’t give up anything to be where I’m at today.
Throughout the year, I’ll be sharing more of myself through blog posts. From my own journey to how I’ve stayed sober to the trauma I’ve worked through.
If it’s something that piques your interest, be sure to check in every Friday at 9:00am EST when each new post is published. If not, you can check out the resources page or visit the blog for other posts to help you.
My goal is to help you peel away the layers so you can come to a place of acceptance and peace within yourself. So one day, you can look back and see how much strength and resilience you had, even in the darkest of times.
You may not even know what you’re looking for out of this journey or why you’re reading this, but you’ll feel it when it crosses your path.
I didn’t when I first embarked down this road and I still don’t have it all figured out.
That’s the beauty of life- getting to actively participate in the unfolding of who we become.
I’m so grateful you’re here on this journey with me. And if my words help you to go within yourself, you’ve changed my life and yours and everyone around you. Keep doing what you’re doing because you’re doing better than you think you are.
Let’s make this a journey worth remembering.
With all my love and gratitude,
